So this is just something random I wanted to do... because I'm procrastinating from reading the four chapters for my Economics class that I should have read a good two weeks ago....

So, when you're with friends, there are some things you tend to hide or just not show about yourself, depending on which 'crowd' you're with. (Well, at least, for me). My high school friends, church friends, college friends, and even around family. Honestly, if my high school friends saw me around my church friends, they would think "What the heck, Katherine's like this?" and if my church friends saw me around my family, they would think the same thing (of course, I would have to be oblivious that they're seeing me in those situations). So yes, I have many sides to me that certain people don't see. And maybe they won't see them ever. That's just how I am. Some may think that's weird or shady, haha... but honestly, I can't really help it. It's simply because I'm shy, and it's hard for me to open up fully to people. I guess you could say I'm guarded. But it's not like any of those "sides" that I show aren't me... They're just a bunch of different sides of me. If that makes sense.

So this entry is to just list a whole bunch of random facts about me. I'm literally writing this as I go along. Some ideas might connect, but others might not; I tend to jump from one thing to the next. You may be surprised, maybe not. Maybe you can know me better after reading. Who knows.

01. I don't have a middle name and I'm a middle child. And yes, I do have the "middle-child-syndrome" every once in a while. But I deal with it on my own.
02. I dislike seafood. I can tolerate/eat it, but I don't prefer it.
03. I'm lazy.
04. I like to joke around a lot. And I'm sarcastic in nature. Some people don't really get it, and actually get offended. Please don't; I'm not really that mean. Most times I'll be kidding around :)
05. I love my grandma more than my mom or dad. End of story.
06. I like to think I'm witty, but people don't really understand my humor. And I end up having to explain it to them. And that's embarrassing, haha.
07. I enjoy clubbing. Simply because I like to dance, and dancing is an outlet for stress. For me at least. But I don't dance with guys at clubs. Some are pretty creepy.
08. I like mostly hip-hop and r&b because they have "that beat" to them.
09. I like a lot of other genres too. But not too much opera/techno/country.
10. I like to wear lots of different styles of clothes. One kind of style is boring.

11. Like I said before, I'm pretty shy. At first. Get to know me, and that's a different story. But it's the initial opening up that's hard.
12. Family over friends.
13. I'm pretty caring, whether you think so or not. If fitting, I put others before myself and think about things to do for them. Whether it's their birthday or they're just feeling down...
14. Sometimes I'm too caring, and put others before myself, but not in the right situations. And I get hurt.
15. I've never been in a relationship.
16. I'm very cautious. Very cautious. **Maybe "careful" could be a better word...
17. Someone once told me I "think too much." And I think it's true.
18. If someone tells me something true about myself that I was denying, I initially get offended. But that'll subside and I'll accept it.
19. I love it when people are considerate of others.
20. I think -empathy- is a big part of me.

21. Even from someone's facial expression or how they act, a lot of times I can tell how they're feeling. It's weird sometimes, but a lot of times, I like that.
22. 나는 눈치를 너무 많이 본다.
23. I think I have a wide face.
24. I'm pretty messy, organization-wise.
25. I like to think I have nice handwriting.
26. I tend to remember really random, little things that most people don't remember. But I have bad memory with things that should be obvious or things I should know (ie. chemistry). Don't ask, I don't know.
27. I'm really good at memorizing lyrics too. If I like them/the song.
28. NYU wasn't my first choice school. USC was. I just wanted to "get away" for a bit, but I'm getting used to it now.
29. I'm a romantic at heart. The kind of girl that thinks about the perfect guy and love that lasts forever. You know, that girly stuff.
30. I have pretty high standards for the opposite gender. But sometimes I wonder why, because it's not like the guys I liked fit all of them. Weird.

31. I've always said I dislike my dad's personality/the way he acts. But as time goes on, I realize that I'm more and more like him. Oh no.
32. I wish I was better at expressing my feelings. In general.
33. I suck at keeping in touch / contacting people. I'm trying to change that little by little.
34. I used to play the piano and clarinet. I wish I still remembered how to.
35. I wish I didn't get so annoyed at my grandma and parents so much and so often.
36. I wish I was more studious. (aka. wouldn't waste my time writing out things like this and actually study)
37. I wish I had a passion in life. A set goal that I knew I wanted.
38. I wish I had a hobby. Knitting, reading, dancing, working out, anything.
39. I want to travel the world. Little by little, or after I retire.
40. I have the weirdest sleeping cycle.

41. I have a very random thought process, but it always ties in somehow. In my mind.
42. I don't know if I'm creative, but someone once told me I'm very neat.
43. I think I've changed, a lot, over the years. Physically, mentally, and personality-wise.
44. I have a (bad) tendency to look at someone's flaws first, then as I get to know them, see the "better" aspects of that person; can't help it. And it's not a good way to make friends =\ .
45. People tell me to stop bothering my brother, but it's just older-sister-teasing. He knows me, I know him. Better than you guys. So leave me alone.
46. I'm really laid back, too laid back, about almost everything. Even things that I shouldn't be laid back about.
47. I like to think I'm an optimist. Which semi-explains my laid back-ness I guess? haha.
48. I dislike it when people don't do their part. I'm a firm believer in "do your share."
49. I'm a pretty good liar, when the situation calls for it. Heh.
50. I'm pretty good at peeling apples. But I can't cook diddly-squat haha. I wish I could.

51. I drive "more like a guy than a girl." I consider it a compliment.
52. I really don't like it when people misuse your/you're and there/their/they're. Or if they write "alot" or "definately". Hate it.
53. I don't curse much, but it does happen. Sorry.
54. If I was asked to do something and I was going to do it, but they tell me to do it again. It makes me not want to do it. Yeah, I'm that kind of person.
55. Please, don't ask me things over and over again. If you cared enough, you'd remember the first time, is what I say. Unless it was said in a very passing-way or something, or you're just making sure.
56. I wanted to do a lot of different things when I was younger, but they were all things my parents weren't really that supportive of. (cheerleading, dance, etc., vs. hakwon, piano, japanese, etc.) Bummer I don't remember any of the things they made me do...
57. If only school didn't give me a strict "time limit" to do things by, I think I'd enjoy it more. Or maybe procrastinate more :x. We'll never know.
58. 8AM classes are my nemesis. We don't agree at all. But I always have to face them.
59. I'm awkward. But I try really hard not to be, and can come off as weird ): sorry.
60. When I'm with a calmer, quieter crowd, I'm the loud "funny" one. If there's even one person who's more personable/talkative/funnier than me, I quiet down. Like I said, different sides.

61. If I'm meeting new people; if they're in a group and I'm alone, I can't start a conversation and just ... just. If I have at least one friend with me, and there's a new person (singular), I can go up to them. Yeah.
62. People tend to have a preconception of me (and my sister and brother) as being "smart." I appreciate it, thank you, but it gets pretty stressful sometimes. There's too much expectation. Too much to "live up to."
63. My things I'm listing are getting too detailed, haha.
64. I've always wanted to become a doctor, ever since I was younger. But I didn't know it was such a long, hard route to follow.
65. I have an inferiority complex.
66. When people tell me to try something, I'm not the type to go "okay" and do it. 99% of the time, I won't. Because I'm afraid of being embarrassed/making a fool of myself. It's sort of like #62.
67. I think if I tried hard enough, I'd be pretty good at sports and such. Problem is, I tend not to try.
68. Hi, my name is Katherine and I'm addicted to Korean dramas.
69. When I have kids, I'm going to teach them Korean and English. Neither first.
70. When(?) I become a grandma, I want to be just like my grandma, haha.

71. I get distracted way too easily.
72. If someone blames me for something, I instinctually start making excuses. But I've already accepted the blame, so I don't know why I bother making excuses.
73. I don't live in the "now." I'm always "thinking ahead."
74. I want to be spontaneous sometimes.
75. I always say I want to adopt a child when I'm older and married, but sometimes I ask myself if I really will...
76. Sometimes I worry I'll never marry. It's scary.
77. I compare myself to others. A lot.
78. I'm sort of selfish. I like to keep "my/mine" as just that: "mine."
79. I like to get unusual/atypical things that most others don't get. For example, the type of mp3 player, cellphone, camera, etc. I guess you can say I like to be different/unique in some aspects.
80. I absolutely hate it when someone sees the "unique" things that I have and copies it right away. (coughmysistercough)

81. My attire is mostly t-shirt and jeans, but I like to dress up. I just don't have the time or motivation to do it.
82. I'm content with myself, but if I was given the choice to change something about myself, I probably would.
83. I have a lot of secrets.
84. If I had the choice to choose any career, disregarding money&such for my future, I think I'd choose to be a photographer that travels all over.. Or something that has to do with media/tv. If it weren't for the work I had to do to become one, a doctor would be nice too :)
85. I question a lot about Christianity and my own faith. But I don't think anyone can really give me the answer. I need to figure it out myself.
86. All I ask for is three, no two, more inches to my height. HAHA :(
87. College makes me rethink a lot of things about my life. How I've lived it, live it, and will live it.
88. I think one of the things I fear most, is disappointing my parents.
89. That, and my grandma leaving..... I mean it's bound to happen, but I don't know what I'd do...
90. I need inspiration, motivation, self-control/discipline, and direction. All at once.

91. I'm lactose intolerant. I can have a littleeee bit, but not much.
92. I know what people want to hear. But I don't know if I always agree with it.
93. I once, sort of, dropped a baby on his head. Okay, long story, but it made me scared of holding babies.
94. I'm more sensitive than people think. My feelings get hurt pretty easily, but I'll act as if everything's okay.
95. If I could walk in them, I'd walk in heels a lot more.
96. I'm blood type A.
97. I have hairy arms. It's genetic. Get over it.
98. I'm never early. I could be on time and a lot of times I'm late, but I'm (almost) never early.
99. I love cheesecake.
100. You still don't know me.

100 = End.

Sometimes, I wish I knew what it felt like to be overwhelmed by Him.

Actually, a lot of times.